I’m sure you’ve heard of the soap opera called “One Life To Live.” The thing is, I feel like I’ve already lived several lives. I suppose it would be more correct to say it’s just a different phase of my one life, but I often think or even say, “Oh, that was back in another life.” Cause it reallly DOES seem like anothe rlifetime ago, especially when I thinking about something in the past that is so totally different from my present life that it seems in no way connected to it.I’ve been thinking about these changes a lot lately. I’m sure I’ll be doing even more of it as I get into the second phase of the Healing Codes, going from the Quick Start Method to the Complete Healing Method. That involves memory pictures, thinking back about times when you’ve felt the same feelings that are plaguing you in present time.
I know I’ve got lots of wrong thinking to correct. For instance, from my childhood it was drummed into me that you think of others first. It’s selfish to think of yourself. I became so totally immersed in this mindset that I thought it was wrong to think much about my own needs, to even pray about my needs. I figured I was supposed to pray for OTHER people, that it was selfish to pray for myself.I’ve come to realize that in reality, it’s more like when you get on a plane, and hear the flight attendant’s speech about oxygen masks, “Put on your own mask before attempting to help others, even small children.” Why? Because if you don’t help yourself first, you might get in such bad shape you won’t be *able* to help others.
The idea of taking care of my own needs seemed so foreign. I think women in general tend to put others first. I’m not saying it’s wrong to think of others, and that your family, for instance, isn’t very important.
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But we have to get ourselves in good shape first. We have to love ourselves and care for ourselves before we can really reach and take care of others. Otherwise, the well goes dry and we’ve nothing left to give.
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I want healing. I want to learn to care for myself. I want to be the person God created me to be.
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I want a new life to live.